I am emotionally devastated today. The reason might be ridiculous to some people but it is not and only someone gone through this type incidents can only realize it. Well, we had a pair of kittens in our house. They were born in our house only. Their mother used to come to our house and I used to pamper her a lot. She gave gave birth to these kitties and after they grew up to an age when they feed themselves, the mother stopped coming to our. Initially occasionally she used to come, and then after one day completely stopped coming. later I got to know that one girl of our neighbour beat her and she was pregnant then, so there is the chance that she be dead also. But also heard that she is in one another of our neighbour's house. She might not be coming to our house because of the security of her new kittens also. So there's a mixed chances of how and where she is. So i don't have any deep remorse and also her kittens has also not given the opportunity to miss her that much.
Coming to the kittens, actually three kittens were born and one of them died within about one month of its birth. Among the remaining two, one was little more white and the other one had more black patches. Both of them had different nature. Only through them in life, I got to learn that animals also have individual natures like humans. The white one had a very laidback type of persona and was more friendly to people. He would even jump to stranger's lap also sometimes. So he was little more adorable and he also looked more cuter than the black one. The black one on the other hand was energetic and active. He would keeep roaming here and there but the white on e would mostly sleep and rest. In case of food also, the white one woulld not hurry to get it. He had the "i don't care" type of attitude. On the contrary the black one would rush down if anything was given them to eat. Although they had different personalities, both would stay together at night. They would play with each other, sometimes cuddle each other. It was really a delight viewing their activities.
Three days ago, the white one went missing. Well they, the kiitens used to go one of the nearby houses and they were loved and feed well also in that house, i know. That may also be the reason and since he was kind of laidback, he might have stayed there. Since i believe he was good enough to protect himself from any predator animals, I can't think of him being dead. So the only other option is that he was taken away by some people to keep as pet and that won't upset me, coz he will be happy there.
But what happened today with the black one literally broke me down. This is the reason for which I'm so sad now. Well, today my father took him to Hamren(his workplace) in our car. On the way, in Nellie my father got down to have lunch in a hotel and took the kitten also to feed something. But it was not a good decision since the place was new to the kitten. A dog came near and he ran away in fear. My father could not find him and atlast went off without him. I got to know it in the evening and i'm really pissed of by the news. Well what really is concerning me is that he has lived with the comfort of our house, the love and pampering of us, assurity of getting something to eat, and all of a sudden everything is lost. He really must be very lonely and helpless now. Just thinking about his plight has brought tears in my eyes. God knows how severely he must be suffering, all alone in a new place very much foreign to him. I doubt whether he has got anything to eat or not. And because he(both the kitens and their mother also was) was very choosy about foods, this concern is killing me. I also fear about people's atrocities towards animals particularly cats. There is superstitions that cats are not good or they are ungrateful, or they curse who feed them, and our society is filled with superstitious people. Even if he has managed to get something to fill his stomach, how lonely he must be feeling. He must be missing us or atleast our house a lot. The weather is also very cold today. I'm afraid he has got anything comfortable or not to sleep. I pray to God, please give him the courage and strength to cope up with situation, help him find the daily bread and shelter and bless him with love from humans and protection against other animals.
